Goodnight Moon Link Up: wk 8 and Lots of tears

Let me tell you I have been really proud of myself for taking this deployment so well and not having a pity party or complaining hardly at all.(other than a few I miss him tons moments.) I have done great, this week wasn't so great, have you ever gone strong for so long and then at some point you feel as though you just hit a brick wall ??
  
        Well that moment happened this week, I broke down hard, I have hit an all time low emotionally and all I can say is "I just want him HOME".  I'm trying to be strong but it seems every time he comes to mind tears arrive like clockwork shortly after. EVERY song in the world seems to make me cry and cry. Now mind you I am NOT a crier so this whole emotional stuff is kind of new.  I have never been this emotional !! Every little detail reminds me of my man. I can't seem to focus at all and its not even PMS .. what gives here... I have exactly 4 weeks left of school and I'm trying to focus but I can't.  I don't know what else to say other than I miss my man more than words can say and I can't stop crying.

         My song of course is a sad one and I'm crying as I listen to it... sorry for having a sad post but I figure you all understand... we all have our moments .. and this is mine
Semper Fi, Amber joy

PS. and I also missed a call from my man.... he was down and wanted to hear my voice and I was in class :(

My prayer

Give me the greatness of heart to see, 

The difference between duty and his love for me.

Give me the understanding so that I may know. 

When duty calls him, he must go. 

Give me a task to do each day, 

To fill the time when he's away. 

When he's in a foreign land, 

Keep him safe in your loving hand.

And Lord, when duty is in the field, 

Please protect him and be his shield. 

And Lord, When deployment is so long, 

Please stay with me and keep me strong.

Author ~ unknown

New Glasses

Well the day has finally come. The day I face up to the fact I can't see the signs on the road while driving.. I guess that's important huh?? What do you think ??

A Poem

LOVE 

by Roy Croft

I love you
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.

I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.

I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;

I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can't help
Dimly seeing there,

And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find

I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple.

Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.

I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good.
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.

You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.

You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means,
After all.

Letters, Homecoming dresses, and April fools

        I bet you can guess from the title that I got a letter today !!!!  This marks the very first letter I have received from my love in sand-land since he left ;). Let me just bask in this glorious moment... can I say right now that my man is AMAZING.  He is a very talented writer ( though he may deny it), reading his letters makes me feel incredibly loved. The letter was marked march 9th and it only took 23 days to get here (I think thats a record)  :)

msg. on the back of my letter... just a teaser I'm not telling you what else he wrote.. ;)

       Today has also marked another GREAT moment, I have been searching for a dress for homecoming. One that suits me perfectly and makes me feel beautiful and as always I look for comfort first. :)  Well I found the dress !! its perfect and I feel beautiful in it and I know my man will think I"m beautiful no matter what I wear but its important for me to look and feel amazing.
 heres a sneak peak..... picture to come with ME in it eventually

from express website

Last, today is April fools day and I was at the mall for a short moment to get something for a special gift... but I found out that said thing was ILLEGAL in NY (stupid rules).  On a happier note I found my dress ... Anyway I found a very funny car in the lot that was pranked upon, haha and I took a picture. but my camera is being stupid so you will just have to deal with my lovely description.  You know the extra heavy duty plastic wrap ? .. well there was a car COMPLETELY covered I mean wrapped up tight in plastic wrap and then they put sticky notes all over the wrap and then in big bold letters on the back it said 4 sale. (I personally would have put free.. but thats just naughty me.)
 Well there you have it Hope you enjoyed !

Semper FI, Amber joy

PS. feeling REALLY loved and appreciated right now by my wonderful man.