Let me tell you I have been really proud of myself for taking this deployment so well and not having a pity party or complaining hardly at all.(other than a few I miss him tons moments.) I have done great, this week wasn't so great, have you ever gone strong for so long and then at some point you feel as though you just hit a brick wall ??
Well that moment happened this week, I broke down hard, I have hit an all time low emotionally and all I can say is "I just want him HOME". I'm trying to be strong but it seems every time he comes to mind tears arrive like clockwork shortly after. EVERY song in the world seems to make me cry and cry. Now mind you I am NOT a crier so this whole emotional stuff is kind of new. I have never been this emotional !! Every little detail reminds me of my man. I can't seem to focus at all and its not even PMS .. what gives here... I have exactly 4 weeks left of school and I'm trying to focus but I can't. I don't know what else to say other than I miss my man more than words can say and I can't stop crying.
My song of course is a sad one and I'm crying as I listen to it... sorry for having a sad post but I figure you all understand... we all have our moments .. and this is mine
Semper Fi, Amber joy
PS. and I also missed a call from my man.... he was down and wanted to hear my voice and I was in class :(